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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 20, 2018 13:09:35 GMT
Rose paced.
She was in the corridor just outside of the Defense Against the Dark Arts classroom. She knew that he had probably been alerted to her presence ages ago, but something about the situation called her to hesitate about walking in there in her usual fashion.
Though she didn't want to see nervous or ashamed or any of that, because she wasn't any of that at all.
But this was Remus Lupin; he had already shown a brilliant display of trust for her by nearly already getting into a fist fight with Severus because of the insinuation that something more was going on than just her learning to brew Wolfsbane.
And now that there actually was.
She felt like punching the wall again.
But she didn't have time to sit here and ponder her life choices. She had class soon. This class in particular. She ditched breakfast early for this. Get it out now, Lupin. Be a brave Gryffindor!
She sighed, walking into the classroom, her head held high....
and her heart hammering.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 21, 2018 4:13:11 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 244 words commentary | Remus knew that someone was outside of the classroom, pacing. He figured out after a few moments who it was, and he couldn’t help but smile. His baby sister – which of course he loved more than anything. He just hoped it wasn’t over something that someone did to her which upset her, because he rather not lose his job over some kid making fun of his kid sister (not that he would do that, he would just give detention, but regardless, the hyperbole was what it was).
He was stacking a few books at the front of the classroom as he was getting ready for the next lesson already. Unlike normal, this lesson would take place from a different book which the school had plenty of copies with – it just did better on this particular subject when compared to the text they were required to get. He still preferred the one they had – just not in this one instance. He heard her footsteps as she entered the room.
Not turning around, he adjusted a quill and the ink well when he spoke. “To what do I owe the pleasure, Miss Lupin? If you are here about a higher grade – I apologize but you’ve already got some of the highest in the class.” He turns around greeting her with a smile and walking towards her to give her a hug.
“How’s it going? What’s brought you here? Is there something you want to talk about?”
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 21, 2018 4:23:19 GMT
She flinched slightly. Was she really that easy to read? Or was it sibling intuition?
Whatever it was, she still didn't know how to start this conversation with him. It was only the second week of school, but if she didn't say anything now, and things progressed and he found out by other means... that would be even more of a huge mess.
She swallowed pulling away from him. "I need you to sit down."
She took a shuddering breath. "I need you to sit down and listen to me. I know this is going to be hard to hear, as I know how protective you are of me.
But I need you to do this.
And not flip out.
Please."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 21, 2018 4:36:48 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 162 words commentary | Remus looked at her with a slightly confused look on his face. Him? Flip out? Well, okay, yes, he had lost his temper once before majorly with their parents after she was attacked. But it couldn’t be as bad as forever being cursed with a beast inside of you that would cause horrifying pain every month.
However, he did take a seat just like she instructed, his brows furrowing into a look of worry. His heart started to pound, his mind racing with possibilities – what could be so monumental that she needed to preface it with that? It couldn’t be anything good – but he was sure it wasn’t as big of a deal as she was making it out to be.
“Alright. I’m sitting. What happened?” He was wondering if some boy had hurt her – perhaps broken her heart (though there was one thing that would make him consider killing a someone if they did it to her, but that wasn’t PG13).
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 21, 2018 4:46:49 GMT
Oh, it was a huge deal.
He was sitting. Good. That was good.
She decided letting him on the news gently, piece by piece was a good start. Instead of just dumping it all on him in one huge monologue that would probably reach 1000 words if she did.
Maybe 1200, if she rambled enough.
She took a deep breath, looking at him seriously. "I've fallen in love."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 21, 2018 5:02:01 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 182 words commentary | He stared at her for a few moments, contemplating the information. Well that was interesting. She was right he needed to sit down. Swallowing he blinked a couple of times before he looked away for a moment. Was it really right for him to get in the way of that? Just as long as he didn’t hurt her – or she didn’t hurt her, he wasn’t quite sure how she went – he was her brother, he didn’t really pay attention to that.
“Oh. Okay.” He was currently going through what he would tell this young person she had fallen in love with. Mostly a warning and telling them not to hurt her or… do anything bad with her. She was his sister, he wouldn’t just let it happen without whoever it was knowing he was watching and would act if they did anything, so they would think twice before they did anything if they ever would.
“Who’s the lucky person? Charlie? Tonks?” Remus wasn’t really grinning, he more looked a bit pensive, wondering who in the world had won over his sister’s heart.
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 21, 2018 5:15:42 GMT
Still calm. Good. Well, at least for the moment. Nervousness had taken over her features. If it had been Charlie, or Tonks, or anyone really else, she wouldn't have started off this conversation like this.
He would surely think she'd gone mad. Honestly, she thought she had too for a bit there. But, it was, what it was. She was looking at him just as pensively as he was her. She was admittedly afraid what sort of rift this would put between them. Afraid of the pain this would cause him.
She approached him, taking a hand in hers and linking their fingers together. A source of comfort for her.
She closed her eyes, steeling herself, and when she opened them again, she locked determination filled eyes with his.
"I've fallen in love with Severus Snape."
Her heart thudded twice in her ribcage.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 22, 2018 3:44:04 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 215 words commentary | He looked at their fingers linked together, his mind racing on what could be so wrong about falling in love – well other than the fact Remus would likely go and threaten them. However, he was patient – even if his mind didn’t want him to be. He looked at her thoughtfully and with a look that would likely seem happy, accepting, like a father to a child – or a brother to a little sister whom he loved very much because that was exactly what it was.
However, when she spoke, his mind starting buzzing – no thoughts seeming to enter his head for several moments, stunned as if she had hit him with a stunning spell. His eyes glazed over, no longer focusing in on the moment right now, forgetting their connection with their hands linked together. The only thing happening in his head was a raging fire.
After a few moments of blankly staring, the anger threatening to burst forth, he managed to find his voice, his thoughts starting to slowly come back to him. “Did Sirius put you up to this? This isn’t funny. Pranks are supposed to be funny. You don’t stick a knife into your brother and twist it.” His voice was even, but the anger could be heard quivering behind his words.
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 22, 2018 3:59:44 GMT
"It's not a prank," she said softly, sighing.
She knew this was going to happen. Steel yourself.
"And don't you dare think for a second I'm doing this to spite you for some reason! You know me better than that!"
His anger hurt in more ways than she could explain. Though she knew his reaction was going to be drastic. There wasn't a chance it wasn't going to be this, because while he said things about being the more 'mature' one. The Marauder lived on.
She pressed her lips together in a very good imitation of McGonagall's disapproving look.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 22, 2018 4:32:11 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 149 words commentary | His sister. And Severus Snape. That was just wrong. There were so many levels where it was wrong. Severus Snape would out him if he wasn’t sworn by Dumbledore not to do so – Severus Snape was cruel to his students, a ‘former’ death eater. They had to fight to the death in the past – around when they were 20 years old, though of course Remus had been disguised at the time. He just barely escaped and just after that apparently he turned.
Remus sniffed and slowly pulled his hand away from hers. Standing up he started heading towards the door. “I’ll see what he’s done to you to make you believe this. A potion or spell of some sort. I won’t let him take you away from me. What has he been telling you? I’m sure he has plenty of stories he could twist to make you hate me.”
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 22, 2018 4:49:47 GMT
"Sit back down, now."
She ran a hand through her hair. "I haven't been put under a spell or potion, Remus!"
She made a frustrated noise. "I'm not going anywhere, Remus. He hasn't told me anything of the sort. Hell, we barely talk about you or Sirius or James!"
She put a hand to his arm. "Don't make me glue you to this chair, Remus. I'm telling you this now because you care about me because I love you. I'm not going to tell you not to worry, cause you're going to anyways. But, I have my own life too."
She sighed, "I... I know this is hard to believe. But, it is, what it is."
She set a pleading look on him, "he's not the person from your days here, Remus. He's not the person who called Lily a mudblood. He had regret and pain just like you do."
She closes her eyes, "I believe I can make him happy. To keep him walking the correct path."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 22, 2018 5:11:02 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 261 words commentary | Remus stopped in place, but he didn’t sit back down. After a moment, he turned back towards her, angry, hurt, worried, all of those things all at the same time on his face. Oh shit, was that even a tear that was trying to fall down his face?
“That’s just how he gets you, don’t talk about it at first. And then slowly but surely, he’ll turn you away from me. He’ll tell you all sorts of stories without giving the full context. He’s a master at that sort of stuff. Even when he was still one of them, he was oh so good at the information gathering bit. He’s using you, Rose. He’s using you for his own gain.”
He quickly rubbed his face to make that tear that threatened to fall go away, now firmly wetting his hand with it. He was shaking slightly and shook his head slowly. “I love you too, it’s - I know you have your own life. If it was with anyone else, I’d congratulate you and then go threaten them to make sure to always keep you happy. But that’d be the extent of it. So long as they didn’t break you heart.”
“But it had to be him. He can’t have changed that much. I know… I know people change its just that – he won’t do a 180, he’ll still have things from back then now. His core being. I just – I don’t want you to get hurt. He’ll hurt you like he did Lily. Love can’t help it. It never did.”
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 22, 2018 5:38:55 GMT
She frowned. "Remus, I've sat with him for the last six years, once a month, as he brewed the Wolfsbane Potion. I'm not saying he's done a one-eighty, but I can't see him using me for anything! If he had wanted to do anything, to hurt me, to hurt you, he would've done it by now, goddamnit.
He's had a ton of chances to 'turn me to the dark side' so to speak. I'm a werewolf for fuck's sake. What's one more werewolf for Voldemort, right?
Here I am, six years later, completely unscathed. Whole. Medicated. All that jazz."
Another frustrated sigh. "This is all part of the prejudices you all hold for each other. He did some stupid shit when he was a teenager, you all did. But that was then and this is now."
She sighed, shaking her head. "How about this, how about I solemnly swear that the moment I think something is fishy, I'll come straight to you. You know me, I won't take things in silence. I know you want to watch out for me, I love you for that. But can I ask you to please just... let this be? I'm begging you. If anything does happen, you'll be the first to know, and I won't have any argument with you after that.
Please."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Aug 23, 2018 0:49:38 GMT
i will break the spell you put on me | everywhere i go, i am spellbound; you cannot have this control on me | 258 words commentary | He just didn’t understand. What was wrong with her? Why couldn’t she see how bad this was? She was smart – he could see it, so why couldn’t she? Was he the crazy one here? No, it wasn’t that way – he was sure if he told James, Sirius or Peter they would agree something was just wrong about this whole set up – but then he remembered his talk with Sirius…
No, it wasn’t him. It wasn’t. It was Severus. It was his fault. He would do anything he could to hurt any of them – and Remus didn’t blame him for that – but he did blame him for dragging his sister into it. Rose didn’t do anything to deserve being used. It was just wrong and below the belt.
“That’s how he gets you. The long game. Don’t you think it is at least a little possible? That he’s using you? That he plans to hurt you? That he’s waited all these years for this to happen, and now that his plan is in action, it’s only going to get worse from here?”
Remus was obviously very worried, and he very much wanted to beat the shit out of the Head of Slytherin House. “I just – I know when I was in school, I stayed silent and stood by my friends even when they did things that were bad – I didn’t do anything to stop them. I loved and cherished them – but I still didn’t do anything. We’re more alike than you might think Rose, and I’m – I’m just worried.”
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Post by Rose Ameile Lupin on Aug 23, 2018 1:02:00 GMT
She sighed again, shaking her head. "I know it seems crazy, but I trust him. I've trusted him with my life all these years..."
She chewed on her bottom lip. "I... just can't follow my heart, Remus."
At least he had calmed down now. It was something. "I know, I know you won't stay silent, and you're going to be watchful, I know you are. That's why I bit the bullet and told you now."
She reached out, taking his hand again. "I know you are, and I appreciate it, I really do. But I'm asking you to let me try. I will let you know if anything goes awry. You know I won't let myself be hurt or used either. I can't afford that sort of thing."
She smiled softly.
She didn't know how to explain it, but she had faith that this would work out well enough.
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